It didn't take me very long to develop feelings for Coley. My resistance failed and I had decided to drop it all and spend every moment I could with her. I would sign in and she'd walk over to me and stand next to me. I'd feel special, as if I was the only boy privileged enough to get such an amazing girl wanting to talk to me and stand next to me. It's no wonder I'd get a pinchy feeling in my chest and a feeling as if a million microscopic metal balls were rolling down my skin when I'd see some other guy stand by her. I didn't let it get to me, I really had no right to, we were just friends after all! Still questions like "Who is that guy? How's he know her? Is he hitting on her!?" would race into my head and then I'd shake them off with the excuse that she was just a friend.
When I met her I began to notice a lot more of one boy in particular. He was Reese, a slightly more energetic guy who had taped himself dancing for her. When she had told me and showed me the youtube he had made for her I thought of doing it myself. Then I realized I can't dance and I would probably just embarrass myself. So, I did what I could and drew her a picture of her avatar instead! She really liked it, in fact I was the first boy to ever draw her something. "Hah, take that REESE" I thought to myself, only to follow it with thoughts of what a dork I was. I felt like a king when she had changed her profile picture to the very same picture I had drawn her.
That night when we had talked Coley had suggested us watching a movie together. She was so cute about it, telling me if thought it was lame I didn't have to do it. Even to this day I think there's noway watching a moving online with such a cute girl could ever be lame. I snuck away from my friend early that night to watch a movie with her. We watched "Monsters Vs. Aliens". The movie was pretty funny but for the most part I ended up listening to her giggles and laughter. I realized that her laughter would in turn make me smile to the point that my cheeks would begin to hurt. At the end of the movie we yet again laid in bed and talked until 5 AM.
At this point we had both developed something towards each other. I remember her saying "Oh Gosh, this is really going to mess me up." and "Please don't hurt me" to which my brain instantly thought of how crazy it'd be for someone to ever hurt her. In response I told her I'd never hurt her and asked her to not hurt me either. We then started playing the questions game where we began to learn a lot about each other.
The next day I signed in and saw her sitting in Reese's lap. I couldn't help the intense feelings of jealousy, I knew what I was feeling towards her but at the same time maybe it was just my own feelings. I had convinced myself she was just my friend and bit the bullet and ignored it. My jealousy was easily dispersed when she got up and walked over to me. An odd sense of joy filled me again.
It had only been a month since we had started talking. But within this month we had talked every night. I couldn't help feeling attached to Coley somehow. I didn't want to seem creepy so I didn't express my feelings towards her. I later found out she had felt the same, though perhaps not as quickly as me. She told me she had to start working over break and couldn't stay up so late during Christmas break. I told her I'd just help her fall asleep then! I think she was pretty happy to hear me say that I wasn't going to stop talking to her just because she wouldn't stay up all night with me. How could I not? I was pretty much addicted to her at this point.
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